Rebecca Gibney triumphs over demons
WHEN Rebecca Gibney finally
grasped the Gold Logie on Sunday, the glittering statuette meant far
more to her than recognition of her acting talents.
The
golden moment was a triumph of the spirit for a shy, troubled girl who
dreamed of stardom but had to battle the odds to get there. Gibney
overcame debilitating anxiety attacks, a violent alcoholic father, her
brother's fight with brain tumours and her own emotional breakdown to
reach TV glory. And she says she owes her win over adversity to her No. 1 fan, her mum Shirley. After the Logie honour, Gibney fought back tears as she described her mother's resilience. "I
love my mum, I credit her with this too," she said. "I credit her a lot
for what I've achieved because we did have a really sh---y upbringing
in a sense because of the disease called alcoholism." Watching
the telecast from her Queensland home, Ms Gibney said the emotion of
seeing her daughter honoured caught her and Gibney's five siblings off
guard. "She rang and said, 'Mum I can't talk but I've just won the silver', and, oh, I was so excited." "I
thought she would have got the outstanding actress one as well because
she is outstanding and when she didn't, I thought, 'Oh, she may not get
the gold'. "Then when they announced it, I was just . . . you have no idea how I felt. I was just over the moon. "We didn't realise how thrilled we were going to be. And so we said we've got to make it a day of celebration." Ms
Gibney, 74, said her daughter had battled panic attacks since she was
14 and, later, depression before she went to a psychologist to fight
her demons. "Many times she was at functions and she'd ask me to
pay for her or just talk to her, even when she was a young girl," she
recalled. Speaking a day after taking out two of the industry's top gongs, Gibney reflected on her dark days of depression. But she claimed the birth of her son Zac, 5, and counselling had helped her through an "emotional collapse". "There
were some very, very black days and all I can say is that I dug myself
out of them and the good thing is that if I ever go into a black hole I
know I can get myself out," the Gold Logie winner said. "I remember at the time thinking I didn't know if I could come out of it, and again I had someone who could talk me through it." Gibney
said marriage, motherhood, and time spent on the family property in
Tasmania's Tamar Valley had helped her keep on top of her anxiety. She said one of her most recent panic attacks was when she was on a plane with her son. "It hit me out of the blue, but when I took my son in my arms it was put on hold," she recalled. "I suppose parenthood is a leveller and I understood in that moment that I had to look after the interests of another person." Gibney has previously spoken about the domestic abuse her mother shielded from the children. Gibney
said her mother turned late-night escapes from her drunken father into
adventures as she drove the six children around the block until they
fell asleep. Gibney said her mum had never blamed her father for
the violence, allowing Gibney to build bridges with him before he died
27 years ago. "He did create some awful times and awful memories, but at the heart of the person was a good soul," Gibney said. "He
had given up alcohol at that stage and he'd lost a leg and he was
actually due to lose another leg through the alcoholism. He was
actually a really lovely human being. "I feel sad for him. He died at 51, he missed out on a wonderful life." But
yesterday Gibney said the golden trophy was the icing on the cake of
her success story, especially since she had believed Natalie
Bassingthwaite or Ian Smith would win. "I'm so used to losing and
being fine about it that I really didn't mind either way," she said. "I
think that's why I was probably so excited because I wasn't expecting
the gold." Gibney said her demons had been laid to rest, with her family all revelling in her success. "I guess being a bit older, I'm 44 now, and things that used to worry me don't bother me so much any more. "I'm not really concerned how the world perceives me any more. I'm quite comfortable in my own skin." Shirley Gibney said her daughter was genuinely surprised by the win. "She said: 'I didn't realise how much I wanted the gold until I got it'," Ms Gibney said. "I
think it was just that she was afraid to let herself hope for it . . .
She's only just realising herself how much people love her."
- Colin Vickery, Darren Devlyn and Anne Wright Herald Sun http://www.heraldsun.com.au/entertainment/confidential/ gibney-triumphs-over-demons/story-e6frf96x-1225708584636
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